Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Being "Untitled" is still a title... What?

My basic knowledge of computer literacy is not that impressive (much to my regret), so the fact that I am (for the 27th time) attempting to start a blog that I can call my own, regularly update, and express my own P.O.V- starts here. I find these templates annoying. Nothing quite says... "This blog will change the way you view life." THAT'S what I'm looking for. Alas.

To keep something like this "impersonal" is pretty much impossible. So what you see here is most likely a perception of somewhat of a reflection of yours truly. 

The way you are expected to keep a distance from what you're writing, to keep it unbiased, is attempting to portray something that has absolutely nothing to do with anything you're putting down on paper when everyone reading this KNOWS what you're truly thinking/expressing, in essence, just a public way of putting it out there for what you think the world might read, seems so self indulgent.

"I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
that your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?"

Nevertheless, here I am, and here this is.

I have annoying tendencies to go on and on about something so mundane. I think it's because I want to know that people understand EXACTLY where I'm coming from, and I want them to agree with me. Impossible task, certainly, but that doesn't stop me from trying.

"I want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd"

I'm 23. I'm an orphan. I'm a victim of circumstance, an unique individual- like all of us. I'm indifferent almost all of the time. I'm passionate, opinionated, scared, cautious (a little too much), loud, happy and sad. I'm a walking contradiction, an old girl... And all this put together leaves me somewhere close to being a hopeful cynic.

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